sigh. im not a spendthrift! nods.

out with dadeedoo just now. my legs are still aching. think its from the continuous walking ._. bought this a skirt from zara (dont have my frigging size so i had to get another sort that i dont quite like as much) and this pale pink top that is so unbelievably cheap it caught me in shock and was left dumbfounded for a few secs. anyway our initial plan was to watch sch of rock but long story. the thing is that we didnt catch it :( possibly watching it tomms, then.

da i cant do any judgement cos i dont think i should but cheer up :) theyre all like that. and its true that it might take them a day but it might take us weeks. months. but its okay with so many people to be there for you. alright? smile, my brave lil down syndrome friend :) oh. and have fun with leon :D wahaha. you havent reported to me how it went!!

You were my sun
You were my earth
But you didn't know all the ways I loved you, no
So you took a chance
And made other plans
But I bet you didn't think that they would come crashing down, no

You don't have to say, what you did,
I already know, I found out from him
Now there's just no chance, for you and me, there'll never be
And don't it make you sad about it

You told me you loved me
Why did you leave me, all alone
Now you tell me you need me
When you call me, on the phone
Girl I refuse, you must have me confused
With some other guy
Your bridges were burned, and now it's your turn
To cry, cry me a river
Cry me a river-er
Cry me a river
Cry me a river-er, yea yea

I know that they say
That somethings are better left unsaid
It wasn't like you only talked to him and you know it
(Don't act like you don't know it)
All of these things people told me
Keep messing with my head
(Messing with my head)
You should've picked honesty
Then you may not have blown it
(Yea..)

You don't have to say, what you did,
(Don't have to say, what you did)
I already know, I found out from him
(I already know, uh)
Now there's just no chance, for you and me, there'll never be
(No chance, you and me)
And don't it make you sad about it

You told me you loved me
Why did you leave me, all alone
(All alone)
Now you tell me you need me
When you call me, on the phone
(When you call me on the phone)
Girl I refuse, you must have me confused
With some other guy
(I'm not like them baby)
Your bridges were burned, and now it's your turn
(It's your turn)
To cry, cry me a river
(Go on and just)
Cry me a river-er
(Go on and just)
Cry me a river
(Baby go on and just)
Cry me a river-er, yea yea

Oh
(Oh)
The damage is done
So I guess I be leaving
Oh
(Oh)
The damage is done
So I guess I be leaving
Oh
(Oh)
The damage is done
So I guess I be leaving
Oh
(Oh)
The damage is done
So I guess I be... leaving

You don't have to say, what you did,
(Don't have to say, what you did)
I already know, I found out from him
(I already know, uh)
Now there's just no chance, for you and me, there'll never be
(No chance, you and me)
And don't it make you sad about it

Cry me a river
(Go on and just)
Cry me a river-er
(Baby go on and just)
Cry me a river
(You can go on and just)
Cry me a river-er, yea yea

Cry me a river
(Baby go on and just)
Cry me a river-er
(Go on and just)
Cry me a river
(Cause I've already cried)
Cry me a river-er, yea yea
(Ain't gonna cry no more, yea-yea)

haha quite an old song. never liked it but heard it again recently and it suddenly turned out to be not bad. rahh. lethargic.


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sometimes i wonder if people are aware of my existence. or the fact that i was there. and yes this is one of those times but i shall not get myself all fucked up over nothing.

did quite a lot of shopping recently. was like out of control or something. -laughs- previously with my mum then with yins and my sis and my sis and my sis. haha. think im going out with dadeedoo on monday! after tuition. do you feel like ikea, dsf? i miss tings and steph :( where is everyone? my personal kangeroo REEraroo? nanapok. momsiee!! and well. other poeple too..

oh! and happy birthday, 'daddy' though im sure youre never gonna read this. glad that youre back from msia already! my dear sister was fretting over why there were no messages during these 2/3days ._. she made me change my sim card countless times only to have me change back again!

im watching my sister getting ready to meet dino in sentosa. and i thought of a song. it doesnt apply to them or anything but i just thought of it.

One boy, one girl, two hearts, their world
Time goes by, secrets rise
One more, sad song, tears shed, she's gone
She'd take it back, if she only could

All the perfect words they seem so wrong,
She's gone
You wish that you could learn to see,
The door is closed and you wish you could be

Alone with you, alone with me
What can I do, I can not breath
My heart is torn, for all to see
Alone with you, alone with me.

Best friend, worst thing, she's been, cheating
Friend deceives, she leaves
Last date. she cries, whispers, goodbye
She walks once more, out that door

Please stay, don't go away
The hardest thing is letting go of you
Stay, don't go away
The hardest thing is letting go of you
What can I do?

Alone with you, alone with me, what can I do
I can not see, alone with, alone with...

lalala! in a good mood. not exactly high spirited but happy :)

haven't been using hotmail for a quite a while and i just discovered that they have a new image! haha quite nice. squarey.
i like the biotherm's lip gloss! i cant quite believe i actually did my geog hols hmwk and used 8 pieces of ppr! unknowingly! haha just realised that will young's leave right now really sound like one of those oldies but er its quite nice la. what is it with me and the word quite?? oh whatever. im always crappy when im happy. so. shall crap more! to anyone reading this [which is like nobody except myself] bear with it. hmm matt thorne's book child star is really nice! i liked it. though it think i mighta creased it. heh. was at the library and saw this book totally sparkingly new and the cover art was done quite nicely so i borrowed it. turned out to be nice! sigh. steph's gone! :( and dear shuqi has gone MIA. i hope tings comes back soon. im growing sick of writing letters instead of just calling her. read abt this politician accused of molesting maid and have an affair few years ago. dont think he's suited to be a politician anw. theyre supposed to be really saintly and everything. gonna do this issue for english hol hmwk! ok think i crapped enough alr. shall go off and do the DREADED math. oh god. i HATE math. if only the person who came up with math had amnesia before telling anyone about his strange inhumane findings ._.

// jessica simpson ; with you
all saints ; never ever

growls. just as i was happily thinking tht my cousin's comp likes me and doesnt throw its stupid tantrums by hanging on me, it does. the very next minute. hmrph. and now my cousin's standing behind me waiting for me to fin blogging so tht she cn play her neopets! ._.

nvm shall blog agn whn m home. laters!

well. if thats the way you want it to be.
its totally completely fine by me.
i would rather not sit around the whole day
and drive myself crazy during mid-may,

believe me, i have better things to do!

-

before the bloody bright red screen even rolled up
when it was so tense i couldnt even fart
a stupid naive lil kid i was, peek
ing at the corners, lifitng the covers.

scanning the applauding crowd, excitement
mounts, i see you, as my breath catches,
as my heart sparsely melted away,
you still had your arm wrapped around her.

-

but yes, thats the way i wanted it to be
you took the first step but when you stepped back
i fell - raucously at your feet, oh
i drove myself crazy, prattling on, no.

believe me, you were important in a poof

-

as cliche as it sounds, as time pass,
there was suddenly a digress of me from you
it felt like i was in the middle of
a joust, and you know ive never ridden

so i fell - raucously on the dewy grass
just like i did, when i fell for you.
and my world swirled in a mishmash of colours
with our songs as my only source of relic

-

but yes, thats the way i wanted it to be
you took the first step but when you stepped back
i fell - raucously a your feet, oh
i drove myself crazy, prattling on, no.

believe me, you were important in a poof

-

smiling goofily behind the screens
i was anticipating the curtain's call
but there was a problem with the strings
and everything, everything let loose.

you and i, we cant hide ourselves
in your eyes i could see how things were
and it's because they were the way they were
deep inside, i could see what your world meant to me

-

complications, webs of woven tales
that i would never be set for
as were the razed lines caked with blood
deep inside, i could comprehend that

things could never be the way
i wanted it to because the way
it was going to be, be shutting me out
as whenever razed lines needed to be

caked with blood again but baby that
just doesnt matter because im never
get through you even without your hands on hers.
frustration mounts, YOUre a mishmash of colours

well. if thats the way you want it to be.
its totally completely fine by me.
i would rather not sit around the whole day
and drive myself crazy during mid-may,

but believe me, you'd always be a part of me.

oh baby
even with you half gone
you were a part of me -
someone i was evolving into
with every hot and humid
long summer day inducted.
but when the curtain calls,
i wont be there no more.

^x no one knows how to say

that they're sorry.

[if they even bother at all]

decided to change my pic after all. after a few more glances, it REALLY does look kinda queer. this one's a lil funny too but whtevr. too lazy to do any more in-depth investigation. ladidum! met my sis and bought some..supplies that inspired me to complete wrapping my xmas presents! hee. steph..the way your present is wrapped is HORRIDLY..unique? ._. left with my sis' and anothr 1/2 of tings'. oh and yins' box! ladidum. shall buy thm all on friday..cnt wait for friday! :D my sister was packing her area of the bedroom and we had many great..discoveries!! really beneficial. -laughs discreetly-

Remember me
Feels like forever
Since the days
When we were friends
Don't understand
All these changes
I'm still the same
No need to pretend
Where'd it go?
Do you know
Maybe it just doesn't matter

Chorus
'Cause when I try to talk to you
I feel like I'm not getting through to you
Where did we go wrong
It's hard to be strong
When I talk
When I talk to you

There were times
In the beginning
When you were there
When I needed you the most
We'd sit and talk
About the future
And laugh about
Us getting old
Do you know
How it feels
I hope that you know that it matters

Chorus

I want you to know everything that I am
Don't want to know what life would be without you

oh wait.
WHAT IS HAPPENING?

sheesh.
i really have no right to be..agitated.
but i am.
and i dont know why.

but you have no right to just..
WHATEVER.

its not like im not over you anyway.

i want to watch so many movies! not really a lot. but now that tings is gone, [and the fact that everyone else either seem to be busy doing their own stuff or just arent movie-goers] there's nobody to drag to the movies anymore :( there's love actually and lotr part2! i missed it and now its out again. but! oh well. and duplex..and i forgot. feeling kinda deprived ._.

anyhow. was at my cousin's house last night and we suddenly started talking dirty and my male cousin, who's only 11 got all flushed and excited ._. he came up with Big Bird and KingKong for my very distant relatives who are visiting. cos, well, he ACCIDENTALLY entered the lavatory while Big Bird was bathing and er you can understand how he earned his nickname. even his sister cant stand him! kids these days -shakes head- i thought he was coined Big Bird because he thought he looked liike that yellow Big Bird from Sesame Street! ._.

I wake up, in the morning
Pull the blinds and see the sunshine
And I wonder, if this Monday
Will wipe the rain off yesterday

Let's go fishing, down the river
Let's go fly a kite on primrose hill
Take advantage of the sunshine
There's no telling when the rain comes in

I feel good, I feel fine
Kicked the flu last week now I'm alright

Come and meet me on the corner
Or just pick me up and we can drive
I was sitting, feeling pretty
Blast the music on the radio

I feel I'm walking, or maybe running
With my favourite song I'm humming

Da da da, da da da, da da da

I walked in to my house
Saw a spider in the bath tub
And when I screamed, It nearly ran
Cos he was just as scared as I was

Called my mom to tell her I love her
Cos she always has been there for me
See I'm blessed with a family
That will love me till eternity

Da da da, da da da, da da da
And I'm glad to be alive
Da da da, da da da, da da da
Whatever it's like outside
Da da da, da da da, da da da
I'm just glad to be alive
Da da da, da da da, da da da

Dressing up, with no effort
Put my hair up in a pony tail
My ID is getting rugged
I will buy myself another pair

I got a call, from my boyfriend
Saying he'll be here at seven
He said he made, a reservation
At our local dining station

As I walk, down the street
The puddle's soaking up my feet
In the water, there's reflections
Of the city street's projections

Stand and face me, just in case you
Miss a chance now to embrace me
Keep on walking, holding hands now
Let's enjoy this dark and rainy night

Started here, started there
With my skirt turned up but I don't care

I got home, kissed my daughter
Jumped in to bed with my lover
Listened to Harry Potter
On my cassette player audio

Da da da, da da da, da da da
And I'm glad to be alive
Da da da. da da da, da da da
With you right by my side
Da da da, da da da, da da da
I'm glad to be alive
Da da da, da da da, da da da
You make me glad to be alive
Da da da, da da da, da da da
Whatever it's like outside
Da da da, da da da, da da da
I'm just glad to be alive
Da da da, da da da, da da da
With you right by my side
Together the strain
And the wind and the rain
And the heartache and pain
Cos it's all just a waste of time

^x im FINALLY 15 :D

was out with steph and sq..had dinner at swensens that got us so IRRITATED [which later led to spasticness..sq esp. tsktsk!] cos this stupid waitress who musta hated us kept annoying us. too lazy to elaborate. anyhow shopped at muee and bought dalkis stuff!! hoho. and im almost done with xmas presents :) left with half of sq's and my sister's. coulda gotten them last night but by the time we reached taka the shops were all friggin closed already so what the hell. 'loitered' around and tried to pretend that we were guests of kathreen or whatever is her name's wedding..sq actually squeezed into the lift with those tourists to go upstairs to the rooms! got us staring after her in shock.

just came back from shopping with my mum..bought this black spaghetti, skirt and jacket. yes all black! what was going though my head man. coulda gotten similar spaghetti at mango's sale!! growls. forgot about it. nvm maybe i shall get it in another shade anyhow. was thinking of buying this guess dress. are they having a sale too? whee!! :D i love year end sales.

and to everybody who wished me, thank you!! :)

I remember all my life
Raining down as cold as ice
Shadows of a man
A face through a window
Crying in the night
The night goes into

Morning, just another day
Happy people pass my way
Looking in their eyes
I see a memory
I never realized
How happy you made me
Oh Mandy

Well you came and you gave without taking
But I sent you away, oh Mandy
Well you kissed me and stopped me from shaking
And I need you today, oh Mandy

I'm standing on the edge of time
I walked away when love was mine
Caught up in a world of uphill climbing
Tears are on my mind
And nothing is rhyming
Oh Mandy

Well you came and you gave without taking
But I sent you away, oh Mandy
Well you kissed me and stopped me from shaking
And I need you today, oh Mandy

Yesterday's a dream
I face the morning
Crying on the breeze
The pain is calling
Oh Mandy

Well you came and you gave without taking
But I sent you away, oh Mandy
Well you kissed me and stopped me from shaking
And I need you today, oh Mandy

Well you came and you gave without taking
But I sent you away, oh Mandy
Well you kissed me and stopped me from shaking
And I need you

Oh, Mandy won't you listen to what I've got to say
Oh, baby don't you let me throw it all away
Oh, Mandy won't you listen to what I've got to say
And I need you today
Oh, Mandy

nice song!! and im back!! 2 more days to my 15th year on this earth! :D -grins wide-
my mum is annoying me to go have my dinner now. laters!

aint xtina pretty.

11days to my birthday!!

just chatted with tings online!! miss that girl. shes coming back on the 23rd! :))) yayy. we shall be able to catch lotr togth like we do every year. and we were discussing about our er. sex crushes ;) and her stupid pesty sister who came along! hahas. so funny when i read back :) iloveyou! :D

When they push, when they pull
Tell me can you hold on
When they say you should change
Can you lift your head high and stay strong

Will you give up, give in
When your heart's crying out "that is wrong"
Will you love you for you at the end of it all

Now in life there's gonna be times
When you're feeling low
And in your mind insecurities seem to take control
We start to look outside ourselves
For acceptance and approval
We keep forgetting that the one thing we should know is

Don't be scared
To fly alone
Find a path that is your own
Love will open every door

See in your hands the world is yours
Don't hold back and always know
All the answers you will unfold
What are you waiting for
Spread your wings and soar

The boy who wonders, is he good enough for them
Keep trying to please them all
But he just never seems to fit in
Then there's the girl who thinks she'll never ever be
Good enough for him
He's trying to change and
That's a game she'll never win

In life there will be times when you're feeling low
And in your mind insecurities seem to take control
We start to look outside ourselves
For acceptance and approval
We keep forgetting that one thing we should know is

Don't be scared
To fly alone
Find a path that is your own
Love will open every door

See in your hands the world is yours
Don't hold back and always know
All the answers they will unfold
What are you waiting for
Spread your wings and soar

In the mirror is where she comes
Face to face with her fears
Her reflection looked forward on to her
After all these years
However how she's tried to be
Something besides herself
Now time has passed and she's ended up
Somewhere else with regret

What is it is that makes us feel the need
To keep pretending
Gotta let ourselves be

Don't be scared
To fly alone
Find a path that is your own
Love will open every door

See in your hands the world is yours
Don't hold back and always know
All the answers you will unfold
Don't wait no more
Spread your wings and soar

Find your road
Love will open every door
See in your hands the world is yours
Don't look back in the window, you'll find your way
Always know all the answers will unfold

Oh don't wait
Spread your wings and soar
Don't wait no more
You've got to soar
Spread your wings and soar
Don't wait no more
No don't you wait no more
Spread your wings and soar
You've can soar